Life just really sucks sometimes.......

Grandpa was dx'd with Type 2 Diabetes years and years ago. He has never taken it seriously or taken care of himself. Over the years, it has caused several different issues with his heath.....but now, it's the worst ever. He apparently injured his toe not too long ago. Didn't know or didn't realize how bad it actually was. So, a couple of weeks ago, he had part of his big toe amputated. :( It's not healing well. Mandy sent me a picture of it and it's really really bad. :( He had an appointment with a vascular surgeon yesterday and there is basically no blood flow to his foot and his foot is pretty much dead and rotting. *BAWL* My poor Grampy. He is likely going to end up with his foot amputated. :( Yes, this is partially his fault for not taking care of himself properly.....BUT....he has been trying to care for both him and Grandma since her stroke almost 14 years ago and he put himself at the bottom of the totem pole most of the time to care for her. WHY can't he catch a flipping break?????? It is so freaking unfair. I am so sad and scared for him. All I can do is pray. I can't help but wonder if things wouldn't have gotten to this point for him if Mom was still alive. She is their one child who was *always* there for them and helping care for them. Even when she was dog sick, in the midst of chemo and radiation and everything else, she *still* was there for them. She is probably so sad at what's happening to him and I hope that she is somehow able to be a comfort to him from the other side. Things like this make her being gone so much harder. :( I also feel totally useless. I have all the time in the world that I could care for them and am so willing to do so.....but I'm 2000 miles away. It kills me. Oh please Heavenly Father, watch over Grampy and help him get well and heal properly.