Six months......

It seems unreal that today marks the beginning of our "six month dates" since Mom passed away. Today is 6 months since I last talked to Mom. *tears* Gosh how I miss talking to her. After having been living away from her for 11 years, phone calls were the biggest part of our relationship. Aside the much cherished visits, of course. I talked to her every day. Some times several times a day. lol I called her about everything and nothing too. I probably annoyed her sometimes. lol But, she was not just my Mom, next to my husband she was my best friend too. She was the one I'd call when I was upset and needed to vent, the first to call and share excitement with, the first I'd call to tell about funny things the kids did or said. She loved that the most and always told me that I needed to write it all down to laugh at down the road. Wish I was better at that. Even as an adult, I'd call her when I was sick. Because it just somehow made me feel better to hear her voice and feel her concern and love. I miss that all so much. I miss her sweet voice and am so afraid I'll someday forget how it sounded. My biggest sadness aside from losing her altogether was that I never got to talk to her the day she died. *tears* I'd been busy all day and only found out in the middle of the afternoon that she'd been in the hospital. I so wish that she or Dad would have called us girls and let us know. I tried calling, but Dad said she was asleep. Next thing I know, she's being taken to the hospital, lifeless and being worked on in an ambulance. I never got to talk to her. Our last conversation was just a quickie, talk about nothing of any importance conversation. It was light and happy. I am so glad the last words we each said was, "I love you." Never could have I imagined that would be the last time I'd hear her voice and 24 hours later she'd be gone. Never did I imagine last June that that would be the last time I would see her, hold her hand, talk face to face with her, and hug her. I do remember telling her then, that she couldn't go anywhere because there is no one on earth that would put up with my phone calls the way she did. :) I miss her so much. I would give anything if I could be granted just five more minutes with her. Just 5 more minutes to hug her and tell her how much I love her and make a really great lasting memory. On one hand it's really hard to believe it's been 6 months already and on the other, it feels like forever. Six months.....sigh.

Aidan's new 'do!

Here's Aidan's new look. He's being quite sensitive about it, poor kid. He went around the house in a "disguise" for a little while. lol He basically just has stubble all over his head (shaved with a 1). There wasn't any other way to fix it. Luckily, his hair does grow fast.

I can't believe my 7 year old did this!!!

I thought we were well past the age kids give themselves hair cuts. When I first got up, I thought he had just slept really weird and had some major bed head going on. Then I got closer to him and realized what he'd done. Oh man. All I can say is at least he's a boy and we can make the rest match and his hair does grow pretty fast. *rolleyes* I don't own clippers so, we'll be going somewhere as soon as places are open around here. He was NOT happy with me taking his pictures to document this moment. *laugh*

Happy Heavenly Birthday, Mom!

Today is a tough day for me. Today would have been Mom's 59th birthday. I should have been able to call her this morning and sing "Happy Birthday" to her, like I have every year. But, instead, I'm sad and in tears and missing her intensely. :( It probably doesn't help that we're also rapidly approaching 6 months since she passed. A half year without her. :( In some ways it's hard to believe it's already been 6 months and in others it feels like she's been gone a lot longer. I'd give anything to be able to sing Happy Birthday to her, but I guess I just have to hope that the Angels of Heaven are singing her the most beautiful birthday song ever, in my place. I love you forever, Mom. Happy Birthday, I bought these roses just for you.

Connor funnies.......

Connor and I are both suffering with nasty colds right now. Blah! Last night he was sniffling and snorting (can't seem to convince him that blowing is a better option! lol) and all the sudden he says, "Mom, sometimes when I snort my snot ends up in my mouth and I just don't know why!" lol Cracked me up. I guess that would be perplexing to a 4 year old! ;)

We just got back a few minutes ago from running errands. I picked up "The Secret Life of Bees" at the Redbox at Wal-Mart. He asks if he can watch it with me and I said "We'll see." He then asks me, "Well, is it for girls and men?" I guess the universe has tipped and I am now a girl and he a man! lol :) Funny boy.

Be my Valentine?

I need to get better at writing down funny kid moments. Great blackmail stuff for later down the road! lol Alex brought his class list home today to write out his Valentine cards. His buddies Matt and Mason are here....they are friends and I also watch them while their Mom works. So, they sit down at the kitchen table and go to work on his Valentines while I'm doing dishes. Of course I was listening to the conversation going on like 5 feet away from me. ;) I was cracking up at the serious deliberation they were having on exactly what (Pokemon, lol) valentine should be given to his crush!!! Last I knew, it was narrowed down to "I choose you to be my Valentine" and "Valentine, you're HOT!" Where's my bug eyes emoticon when I need it??? lol Geez....he isn't quite 10 yet! I have to laugh about his crush, because he doesn't want me to know, but he's so obvious about it. lol At least at this point in life, he's got great taste. :) She's cute, sweet and LDS. Let's hope his taste stays the same! Oh, her Mom (they are in our ward!) says the feeling is mutual! ;)